Feb 25, 2015

Potter's field

It is near the end. I cannot pay the bills this month and owner of this place will throw me out as soon as he finds somebody else who will rent this. I have nowhere else to go to.
Well, this was no fun anyway, but still, I feel very sad and afraid.
I don't know for how many days or months I will continue living my pathetic existance, but it will be surely painfull.
I only hope that my end will not be humiliating to my son and that it will not ruin his life.
I'm not a loser, just a guy with a terrible luck.

Feb 24, 2015

ISIL

The horde of half islamic fanatics- half psycopatic thieves is making a havoc all around world news.
They are so well organized, trained and equiped that a platoon of Iceland's army would blow them to smithereens. Yet, they keep uploading those grusome videos so that we can maintain being afraid and hug our pillows when we go to sleep, whispering: "Thanks heavans that we have NATO that can protect us" .

Feb 23, 2015

Give them Oscars

This deserves Oscar for the best director, script, actor, sideactor and special effects.
http://empire6018.blogspot.com/p/bloody-thing.html

Are People Animals ?

Come to think of it, humiliation during adolescence can really be helpfull. People who suffered because of their nationality or religion can become nationalist in very positive way or true believers.
I know some gay people, and althogh I....(let's skip it untill but)...but , I was extremely surprised about they ability not to judge other people . Hearing those things enabled me to see how narrowminded I am.
Before any comment: Yes Robert, it is BUT, not BUTT.

My Monday

Woke up, clothes on, made bed, washed my face,set some clothes for washing,  washed dishes, made myself a breakfast, ate, washed dishes, did cleaning of floor in my "shop", cleaned the tables and PCs, made myself y coffe,had to go to the closet,made some cigarettess, finally set down to drink coffee and read the news, msg on the phone, grabbed the phone, phone company selling some shit, spilt the coffee why I left the phone, had to clean floor again, also my keyboard, also my pants, made another coffee.
I'm not angry. I know that God hates my guts these days.

Feb 18, 2015

Bologna

   Everyone who knows me, knows I'm a huge fan of FC Inter. Dunno why. I started loving that club since I was 5. Guess it's something to do with personality projection. I find that Inter's "temper" is similar to mine, or imilar to what I'd want to be like.
  My father didn't like Inter, because once long go when they were champions of Italy, he wrote them, congratulated and they didn't reply.
  My father loved FC Bologna. They were champions in season 63/64 I think and he wrote them in that little italian he knew. They replied and sent him a photo of the team, signed by all the players.That phote got lost somewhere decades ago, but I wish I could have it. It would mean to me more that brand new Mercedes.
 And Inter writes to me. Few years ago I became a memer of the fun club.They write to me to congratulate me every birthday. Also on my birthday they send me offer to sell me Inter jersey with my name and chosen number on the back (with 80% discount).

Feb 17, 2015

The houses made of stone

Due to my jollygood situation I was thinking about going to monastery or smth like that. But it's not for me. In a monastery you devote your life to God. I can't. Don't get me wrong, I love the guy, but there are things he did to me that I can't forgive that easy.
To turn to crime ? Well, I can't be chickenstealer. I could only stel a million or die trying, and there is no possibility for that here,Also, people who are able to pull that thing are too old now and wouldn't participate.
Or I could just shoot every postman that brings the bills to my box ? After a while they would be too affraid to come.

Feb 14, 2015

When the music's over

 People tend to betray me in every possible way. Even my customers love to go somewhere else, although I give them everything. All of this is becoming an absurd that makes my head fall down to my empty palms more and more often.
 I cannot live this. I don't know if I even live now. This is not even a joke of a life. The only thing that gets through that disbilief is the fear ; This will not end well.
Sometimes destiny is worse than death.
But this was supposed to be my life for heavens sake. When did it all go so terribly wrong ?

Feb 2, 2015

Damn you Robert

You were clicking too much I guess. Now I don't see any adds on my blog. No coffee for me :(
I should be turning to crime instead of writing anyway. It's more profitable and you get more respect.

Jan 31, 2015

Meaning of life ( for those who don't use Internet Explorer)

Life is a piece of shit. The more clever you are, more unhappy you get. It is a constant rollercoaster of infortunate events, mixed with 5% of moments of the true joy. Therefore, don't take it serious.Try to recognise opportunities to make some money, but apart from that -  just have fun.
Nothing is completely clean and nothing is sacred on this damn world. Make fun of it 24/7. Be a child forever. Don't be affraid of death ; death never ends, but neither the life does.
Be more artistic when you insult people. Hurt their feelings. It will make you feel better.
Play games only on your homeground. Don't waste energy on battles that will bring you nothing.
Try not to be serial killer, although i's very tempting sometimes.

Timebreaker

I have the power. If I go out , having an umbrella in my hand, there is 0% probability for rain, no matter how cloudy it is. On the other hand, if I put sunglasses on, there will be thunderstorm within 40 minutes.
When I bought the sledge for my son -  there was no snow for 3 years.
Btw, I also noticed that all the things you have at your home all the time, disappear when you run out of money. First thing that evaporates is toilet paper and toothpaste.

Jan 29, 2015

The hence

White cat went over the fence.
therefore it's hence ;
she caught sparrow with such a speed !
therefore it's indeed .

Jan 28, 2015

Winter

Wintertime is so nice and romantic that it makes me wanna throw up.
I hope that one day there will be a possibility for all the people who like snow and cold weather to take it to their homes and stick it where the sun doesn't shine.
Give me sun, give me T shirt and shorts, give me green hills and even fukking mosquitos.

Jan 26, 2015

Deja vu

Had a perfect deja vu. But unlike the other deja vus, I remembered where I snesed this one before. It was a dream. Actually it was a nightmare because of .... well, my options. I t was a dream of me sitting here, reading something on the internet, while my friend is on another PC. And it's the feeeling, not the picture.In few seconds of a dream you're able to see all. Dreams are not made of pictures, events of feelings; they are made of plasma that conects it all in one.
I used to think that deja vu is divine intervention. God help us dream about all that will happen in future, in order to save our mind, because some things are too painfull and could easily burn your mind if you're not prepared. So basicaly, that's the intro ino future ; you dream of it and forget it, but it stays in your subconsciousness.
But what if deja vu is just an anomaly ? Sometimes I think : the endless universe is absurd thing, but it's there, so impossible thing is happening. In that case, everything is always happening. All time is always happening.
That makes deja vu a brief burst, where one timeframe collides with the other.
In any case, we are humanoids with limited brainpowe, but death doesn't appear to be stopping anything.

Jan 23, 2015

Nice one

On my way here I stepped on a crossroad. I saw car approaching and went back to sidewalk, since in my country drivers don't let you pass easily. But the car stopped and I saw a local priest driving it.He showed me with his hand to walk on. Very polite.I waved backed and crossed the road.
Nice Peugeot you have there dear "father".