Aug 16, 2016

It's where it failed


There is no rest



Diabolical gratitude


Feb 24, 2016

Overburn

I'm not sure if there is any logic in life. Not sure if this is some weird purgatory, or we have to embrace little things we have and live that way. In short : I know shyt.
But there is some epic, raw justice and feeling of relief in the fact that everyone dies.
No escape. Everyone pays. No gray zone, no sympathy.

Feb 19, 2016

Castles made of void

 What is wrong with these people ?  How did I end up working with them ?  Where the hell they were born and raised to be such selfish morons ?
   It is my work. Ofc. in every company I ever worked, there was always important who are you good with. How hard you work, what you achieved and created.... it's bullshit ; what is important is to make it look like you are working very hard. It's nothing new to me.
But this surpasses it all. These people only care what the manager thinks of them. Work is not important. Work for them is the thing that you do, making it damn sure that whatever is a problem - somebody else did it. If they don't know to do something, they will ask you to help them, if they make a mistake and you correct it, without telling to anyone- they will say "thank you", but if you make even the slightest mistake, they will act like you killed somebody.
They have no sense of humor, they know nothing about the life or history, yet they live.
And they think they're smart.
I was never a part of such society. I worked with people who taught that the main thing is to keep the business running and growing ; where differences would be solved during conversation. But this !
This is the scum. The way I see it : generation after generation, all the best people from my nation would either die in some pointless war, or go to some foreign land, to make a normal life for their children. What is left here is the bottom of the bottom. This is pure scum.
When I logged in to facebook to see my high school friends there, I noticed that all the good guys either died during the war, or fled somewhere. What is left are losers we joked with back than. Losers and me. Losers are surprised to see that I still live here. I am surprised that I can survive in the world of the losers.
Once again, they are scum. There is no point of conversation with then. They know nothing.
But they are the masters of sucking up.

Jan 13, 2016

Entertainment NO8

America is not dead !
Saw the movie Nebraska (Bruce Dern main role). What I could see there is that the America we europeans loved, american human soul and normal pace of life is still alive there.

Feb 25, 2015

Potter's field

It is near the end. I cannot pay the bills this month and owner of this place will throw me out as soon as he finds somebody else who will rent this. I have nowhere else to go to.
Well, this was no fun anyway, but still, I feel very sad and afraid.
I don't know for how many days or months I will continue living my pathetic existance, but it will be surely painfull.
I only hope that my end will not be humiliating to my son and that it will not ruin his life.
I'm not a loser, just a guy with a terrible luck.

Feb 24, 2015

ISIL

The horde of half islamic fanatics- half psycopatic thieves is making a havoc all around world news.
They are so well organized, trained and equiped that a platoon of Iceland's army would blow them to smithereens. Yet, they keep uploading those grusome videos so that we can maintain being afraid and hug our pillows when we go to sleep, whispering: "Thanks heavans that we have NATO that can protect us" .

Feb 23, 2015

Give them Oscars

This deserves Oscar for the best director, script, actor, sideactor and special effects.
http://empire6018.blogspot.com/p/bloody-thing.html

Are People Animals ?

Come to think of it, humiliation during adolescence can really be helpfull. People who suffered because of their nationality or religion can become nationalist in very positive way or true believers.
I know some gay people, and althogh I....(let's skip it untill but)...but , I was extremely surprised about they ability not to judge other people . Hearing those things enabled me to see how narrowminded I am.
Before any comment: Yes Robert, it is BUT, not BUTT.

My Monday

Woke up, clothes on, made bed, washed my face,set some clothes for washing,  washed dishes, made myself a breakfast, ate, washed dishes, did cleaning of floor in my "shop", cleaned the tables and PCs, made myself y coffe,had to go to the closet,made some cigarettess, finally set down to drink coffee and read the news, msg on the phone, grabbed the phone, phone company selling some shit, spilt the coffee why I left the phone, had to clean floor again, also my keyboard, also my pants, made another coffee.
I'm not angry. I know that God hates my guts these days.

Feb 18, 2015

Bologna

   Everyone who knows me, knows I'm a huge fan of FC Inter. Dunno why. I started loving that club since I was 5. Guess it's something to do with personality projection. I find that Inter's "temper" is similar to mine, or imilar to what I'd want to be like.
  My father didn't like Inter, because once long go when they were champions of Italy, he wrote them, congratulated and they didn't reply.
  My father loved FC Bologna. They were champions in season 63/64 I think and he wrote them in that little italian he knew. They replied and sent him a photo of the team, signed by all the players.That phote got lost somewhere decades ago, but I wish I could have it. It would mean to me more that brand new Mercedes.
 And Inter writes to me. Few years ago I became a memer of the fun club.They write to me to congratulate me every birthday. Also on my birthday they send me offer to sell me Inter jersey with my name and chosen number on the back (with 80% discount).

Feb 17, 2015

The houses made of stone

Due to my jollygood situation I was thinking about going to monastery or smth like that. But it's not for me. In a monastery you devote your life to God. I can't. Don't get me wrong, I love the guy, but there are things he did to me that I can't forgive that easy.
To turn to crime ? Well, I can't be chickenstealer. I could only stel a million or die trying, and there is no possibility for that here,Also, people who are able to pull that thing are too old now and wouldn't participate.
Or I could just shoot every postman that brings the bills to my box ? After a while they would be too affraid to come.